I have introduced you to the above Bible verse, because I have a great desire to tell you of my recent spiritual journey. In my lifetime, like many of you, I had experienced some pain and some losses. During those times, I remained connected to God, but slowly I lost my ability to place my complete trust in Him. I had the usual knowledge of God, but I didn’t realize that I was becoming confused and beginning to have my doubts. I was unaware that I was placing my trust in worldly things and not listening to my Lord.
As you may know, I was one of the founders of Potter’s House Association. Subsequently I served that ministry for 30 + years. Little did I realize that God had further plans for my life; leading me to a sabbatical year in 2017. As I entered that sabbatical year, I became preoccupied with worry over how I was going to spend that year. There is no doubt that I am a plan-oriented person, and thus I began to wonder what I was going to do! After years of working among the poor, my identity was more oriented to doing and not to being a person who was listening to the thoughts of God. When one works among the poor of this earth and one has the gift of mercy it is so easy to develop a “Messiah Complex”, wherein a person believes that their role is to assist and save others. The danger came when I did not allow the Spirit to lead me.
Because I failed to realize that my thoughts were not His thoughts, He intervened and provided me with a Godly mentor who has been walking with me since 2016. This was so fortunate, because after many years of activity at Potter’s House, I was now concerned with how I was going to occupy my time. My first goal became to enter into prayer; asking God to show me the face of Christ more clearly, to love Him more dearly, and to follow His plans during the sabbatical year.
Because I had not been following the thoughts of God, He began to heal my relationship with Him. I confess that in my walk with the Lord, I failed to understand His ways. Maybe this is true of all of us. Maybe we will never understand until we see Him face to face.
Later I married and discovered that I would not be able to have children. Yet, later God blessed me with many spiritual children at Potter’s House. Since beginning my sabbatical, the Lord has provided me with some devotionals that were taught by Pastor Tom Holladay; daily 13-minute devotionals that provided me time to study the Bible. For instance, although I realized that Isaiah was a difficult book to understand, Pastor Tom’s teachings began to show me the workings of the Holy Spirit and helped me to understand the dark areas that were producing my pain. His word was a light in the darkness of my life. Isaiah talks about a vision that God has for us and the comfort that that vision can bring to our lives. Allow me to share with you some truths found in Isaiah, chapter 55. THE FIVE THINGS THAT WE MUST DO TO RECEIVE GOD’S COMFORT. This is an invitation to the thirsty.