When I got pregnant I didn't know what to expect, which I really didn't because we chose to keep the gender a surprise. I knew I would do anything to protect and keep that baby growing inside me, and I did love him or her but that love is nothing compared to how I feel about my daughter the day she was born and even more so today. I would honestly give my life for her. I pray everyday that God give us more and more years together and that our time together would not be cut short.
All that to say motherhood hasn't come without it's difficulties. As many of you probably know, the sleepless nights are hard. Some of the hardest moments of my life have simply been moments of complete exhaustion since having her. And then there's breastfeeding, which they say shouldn't hurt (and it doesn't now) but that's somewhat unrealistic when you and baby don't know exactly what you're doing. Consider yourself blessed if you had a positive beginning experience with breastfeeding! I clearly remember being exhausted and in pain from trying to feed my equally tired baby who JUST. WOULDN'T. EAT. And sobbing....oh man the tears I have cried of frustration, tiredness, pain, love, and utter joy. What a rollercoaster.
Motherhood, and really parenthood, is a beautiful gift from God. God has blessed all of us to take a role in either our own children's life, but also the lives of our nieces and nephews, grand kids, god children, and maybe even young siblings...and it's so amazing to play that confidant, role model, protector, play mate, and true love for those children. I didn't understand it though until I became and aunt and a mother all in 2 months and I am forever blessed.
In closing, I want you to know that by the time I published this post my daughter has fallen asleep.